Embodiment of Truths
The freedom you seek is within you. You’ve made yourself a prisoner of your own beliefs. You were conditioned to suffer; a menacing voice telling you to keep silent if you were to be safe, a longing to be seen and heard pushed down into the depths of silent rage, and this rage hovering over the grief of the longing to be loved. This silent hurt carried you on the winds of unseen lies where stoicism and strength masked the voice of self-betrayal.
A mother I both loved and hated embedded in me seeds of self-doubt and victimhood, and provided a living example of rage turned tornado, destroying everything around her and never noticing her own self-created rubble; wounding and helplessness turned to wrath and needy manipulation.
Observant eyes made me vow never to become her. Tempestuous and tortured souls made me cringe at their weakness, but it was in this vow that I split my soul in two. I was a rebel in my thoughts and a fearful child in my heart, exploding into a reality of unseen results; life mirroring to me all the ways I rejected myself, failing to see wholeness. It is not truth that harms us, but the denial of truth, and failing to see ourselves as we are. Our self-rejections become our projections, the poison of untruth saturating our reality. Reality is a creation of our perception and perspective, and really nothing more.
Embodiment has taught me so many beautiful truths, extraordinary lessons in ordinary moments, teachers in present moment experience. Joy teaching me what I really value, rage teaching me that my heart longs for something better for myself and the world, and grief and loss teaching me of my own deep capacity to love.
Darkness spiraling into the light and back again, lessons only brought to me by Nature. SHE does not deny her own truth, she simply is. Honoring every piece of our wholeness allows us to see wholeness in ALL; a condition created by a certain breaking open of the heart, a shattering that reveals the soul, revealing something mysterious and partially unknowable that creates a journey of discovery. This journey continues with each moment’s experience, a star-seed blossoming throughout our lifetime.
In the end, journeying back to the spiral of Creation and then beginning again; a soul evolved just a little bit each time. We are Magic in the making.